No, i have not become a member of the “religious right” or the GOP. Rather, without even reflecting that much on the quotes Leslie left in response to my previous post (very insight-breeding), it is clear to me that the thing i am most attached to in this material world, perhaps the only thing i am really attached to – in that way that makes me justify it to myself – is Buffy the freakin’ Vampire Slayer. And related television programs. It is ridiculous the anxiety i experienced over my Buffy buying weekend. i mean, what the hell? Never mind the monetary expense – that’s inconsequential – but the energy i put into worrying whether God was going to take it away from me to give me a lesson-in-detachment-for-the-spiritually-disabled was absolutely, well, embarassing. Add to that level of attachment that the only thing that will consistently persuade me to neglect my duties as an any and everything i am is a show that i really want to watch. And still, i cannot persuade myself to quit them. i would rather quit smoking ten times. Sigh. This is an absurd dilemma. This choice should be pretty clear-cut. But instead, i find myself trying to rearrange my self so that it does not have to be made. What a fool i am. What a very, very human fool.
In related news, i found the Series finale of Angel a bit, well, very much of, a let down. i won’t go into details why as i do not who might yet be anciticipating it. Also – i received from the great and glorious Andrew today the third season of Arrested Development, the posession of which will no doubt further my progression toward hell, but which also, i suspect, will not do so idly and with great disappoinment. It was a wonderful package full of zombie comis and music and letters!!! My heart made with the happy today. Oh, that i would make it do that solely for the love of God. Maybe that will be next week. Foolish, foolish human. Thine ease will be thy undoing…
3 Comments
11 April 2006 at 2:57 pm
do you know for how long how sad i was when i completed the buffy series? that i actually cried at the season finally and wistfully prowled the internet for rumors of a much-hoped for renewal? how relatively pissed i was with the ending of angel? yes, i think you do.
11 April 2006 at 2:58 pm
that’s finale NOT finally….
17 May 2006 at 6:11 pm
Errhrraw!(frustration sound)
When the $#!+!!! is Abi going to post again. It-ah make-ah me-ah ah-crazy!